its worrying me
we are at the beginning of (or are we in? Or approaching?) a digital revolution
Am i already in it? growing up with the internet ?
it’s worrying me because I don’t want to code
I have zero interest in coding. And I know enough to know, that yes I could learn it, but I’m doubtful that I would become any good at it, or that it would bring me any joy, and I believe this journey of work should be about seeking joy (because yes I am that lucky or because yes I have made that choice) and I know that sitting in front of numbers and screens it just not. my. thing. I’d get fed-up and make mistakes and then things would go tits-up and frustrate me because the code I tried to write had errors and whilst I’d enjoy the problem solving and achievement of I wouldn’t enjoy the person that made me, I don’t like fishing for details it hurts my head and makes me see things narrowly, small, close, in, deeper maybe but definitely with a squinty eyed focused. And id never get good at it because getting well practised at somehitng like that would make me think I could take short cuts, then I’d make bigger mistakes and get annoyed with myself for jumping in too quick….. there are not enough fingers and toes to count the times I have briefed myself before a day, a meeting, a text, a anything about sloooooowing down and not jumping in too fast, with my fast thinking, and instead i’m going to think through the problem first before trying out solution after solution after solution after solution until eventually pausing and thinking about it a little more… I remember waking up as a child/teengaer and deciding I would be quiet today, be passive, observe, watch, be calmer – it never lasted. never ever worked for long at all. I wonder what the point was.
My flippers, toes, brain,…. it was not built to code. please give me another job.
do i have to code
whilst i’m coding my super powers are diminishing because coding uses none of them
coding is not my super power and I am zero interested in it
I’ve just decide I’m going to learning to code
thank you wild-writing … i love you